Losing a Friend

I sit here staring blankly at my PC screen…
I am in shock…
In grief…
In denial…

I know I should write to get all the emotions out and that it would probably be good for my psyche… In the early hours of Thursday morning I was notified of a good friends passing and then later that morning I was notified of another good friends passing…

Death…
Makes me MAD!
I promised I would not swear…

Wahib Isaacs!!!

I never realised that I actually knew you my whole life until I stood there saying goodbye.  You teased me and annoyed me my whole life also. You were a relentless critic of all my shortcomings. I loved your direct approach of telling me when to shut up and when to get over myself. We even worked together at one stage which was really funny because I was your supervisor LOL!

I saw you everyday casually strolling past my house or me running past yours and you hollering ‘Run you fat bastert’! Your sarcasm and wit always got me laughing. You were vrek droeg with your bot jokes! I told the kids about you and Ayesha said “Mommy is that the Uncle that says ‘You so pretty but you give vuilkyke?’” I said ‘Yes that’s Uncle Wahib…’ Ayesha is so sad she never spoke at school all day…

I will miss you telling me that I am a bad parent and a terrible wife! I will never hear you telling me off before Muslim School either ‘You gonna chirp Sheikh again tonight…’ or you giving Maruf advice on how to discipline me: ‘You must listen to your husband and just keep quiet!’ LOL!

CRY! CRY! CRY!

But always you were calm and soft and caring… Considerate and gentle… With a golden heart filled with kindness that was always ready to help…

I am so shattered by your death because I still can’t believe it’s true…

Your Dad held me so tight and thanked me for being your friend and I thought I would split in two because the amount of grief I feel is unbearable and his grief is devastating and indescribable…

I pray for Sabr and Peace for your family as you are irreplaceable my bru…

I will never forget you…

Nothing prepares you for the loss of someone you love…

Inna lielaahi wa inna ilayhi raajioen!

PS: Yes! I am still crying! I promise I will do better! Ek is tog lief vir jou!  Till we meet again my friend!

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Author: Sumayya

I have Super Powers! Don't tell everyone ssshhhhhtttt Writer, Producer, Filmmaker, Photographer

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