Headspace Riot

I must apologise for my silence for the past month. I have been so busy just trying to keep things together during this busy time of year! It has been a tremendously difficult time for me emotionally as well… and I have just been trying to hold it together and not let the darkness and sadness overwhelm me.

I have been thinking A LOT about the possibility of recurrence…
As some of you may know I lost a very very dear friend last month and daily I hear of people getting diagnosed with cancer and then have their cancer come right back… It’s not easy and definitely affects my state of mind!

I am a firm believer in the psychology that we must focus on the small things in our lives, the things that we are capable of changing and in control of… the things we CAN CHANGE to make a difference in the world! So I sat back and thought about it.

It went like this:

“So you are afraid that your cancer will come back?
SO WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO ABOUT THAT?”

“You say you will NOT do chemo again?
SO WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO ABOUT THAT?”

“So you are feeling scared and lonely?
SO WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO ABOUT THAT?”

Big things and big thoughts! I suppose most people who have been through a cancer diagnosis think about this ALL THE TIME! My point is that I feel I am in control of these thoughts and insecurities. I believe that I CAN DO something about them to make me feel better. Right?

My action PLAN? My secret weapon?

Prayer…
Throughout my journey I have relied on nothing else…

Pray – pray for health, pray for happiness, pray for success, pray for thankfulness and gratitude and pray for the hereafter and then… PRAY SOME MORE!

I know, I don’t come across as THAT HOLY PERSON – on the contrary I am SUPER HOLEY lol – Completely flawed and beautifully broken and daily I thank my Maker for He is The All Knowing and All Forgiving!

Allahu Akbar!

Alhamdulillah!

 

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Author: Sumayya

I have Super Powers! Don't tell everyone ssshhhhhtttt Writer, Producer, Filmmaker, Photographer

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