I am Obviously Still Confused

Yesterday I checked my WordPress account and was pleasantly surprised that my stats were up despite my very ominous silence from social media. I am sorry that I have not written in such a long long time. So much has happened and so much has changed that I decided that a quiet sabbatical was really needed on my part.

You see I am one of THOSE people who gets really affected by social media. To me it has a negative influence on my psychological state and in turn affects me spiritually. I am relieved that I came to this realisation because for the longest time I thought that I was crazy lol! I FEEL QUITE SILLY ABOUT IT ACTUALLY, because, dammit… I am a Comm Science Grad and I know how this shit works…

So anyways, I quickly glanced at my last post and the horror kicked in…
I don’t know how many of you write and then reread what they have written a few months later…

I am so embarrassed to say that my last post dated 26 April 2017 is completely incorrect…
It was my 5 YEAR CANERVERSARY – NOT 4 YEARS!!! I was diagnosed in 2012…
I think I made the mistake because I really did not want to think about it, because you really don’t want to think about Cancerversaries, but you do… not that you have to…

I even attended my bi-annual checkup late in June because of the sheer reluctance of facing reality…
And the first thing my Oncologist says to me? CONGRATULATIONS ON REACHING YOUR 5 YEAR MARK! IT IS A REALLY SPECIAL MILESTONE BECAUSE YOUR TYPE OF CANCER USUALLY RECURS WITHIN THE FIRST 5 YEARS OF DIAGNOSIS! Ended with a big full body hug!

I am grateful Alhamdulillah!
PS: I also got downgraded to once a year checkups woohoo!!!! So at least I will have anxiety about hospital visits only once a year YIPPEE!

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